I Am Ready to Live

I lived my life with just existence at one point. I did what I had to to survive a marriage I didn't want to be in and a love that was not fulfilling.

I left him 21 months ago and before that was barely engaged in the relationship for 8 months previous to that. During my marriage I was not the person I am today. I was depressed, angry, resentful and overall not well. The day, literally, I left I was a new woman. I became free and was ready to take the existence I had accepted as my life then and decided that living was sooooooo much better.

I got a great job, worked my *** off to have the life I wanted and made it not about anyone else but me and my children. I wasted a large part of the 29 years I have had so far and I am not willing to let the next 29 pass me by without making my mark here.

The struggles I had before are gone, and there will always be more to overcome surely. But where I am now and who I have been able to become will make the battle of living worth every tear, sad feeling or anger I may have.

It is bittersweet to have learned from the mistakes I made and turn them into the road to a life I want. I am ready for the next adventure:-)

MegJgeM MegJgeM
36-40, F
4 Responses Nov 6, 2008

Good luck to you 21butterfly:-)

Wonderful story. Very inspirational. I am still in the drifting, existing stage, trying to break my cacoon into the living stage.. =)

Oh my "role model" I havent thought of myself in that way, but thanks for the compliment. It is very thoughtful and appreciated.

Your welcome. This place has allowed me to express things otherwise hidden....Its my therapy and I appreciate all that it does for me to be able to continue to share my thoughts