I Am Ready to Live
I lived my life with just existence at one point. I did what I had to to survive a marriage I didn't want to be in and a love that was not fulfilling.
I left him 21 months ago and before that was barely engaged in the relationship for 8 months previous to that. During my marriage I was not the person I am today. I was depressed, angry, resentful and overall not well. The day, literally, I left I was a new woman. I became free and was ready to take the existence I had accepted as my life then and decided that living was sooooooo much better.
I got a great job, worked my *** off to have the life I wanted and made it not about anyone else but me and my children. I wasted a large part of the 29 years I have had so far and I am not willing to let the next 29 pass me by without making my mark here.
The struggles I had before are gone, and there will always be more to overcome surely. But where I am now and who I have been able to become will make the battle of living worth every tear, sad feeling or anger I may have.
It is bittersweet to have learned from the mistakes I made and turn them into the road to a life I want. I am ready for the next adventure:-)