I work really hard to try and make my boyfriend happy. I talk to him when things upset me so that we can work them out. I cook for him. I support him and I'm even patient when he does extremely irresponsible things but I am tired. Tired of never getting the reciprocation I deserve. I'm tired of feeling like him mom and having those feelings and thoughts laughed at. I'm tired of never knowing what will set him off. But mostly I'm tired of feeling guilty for wanting to live my life. He says its ok for me to go off and spend time with my friends or family but then I get phone calls or text messages about how lonely he is or, even worse, I come back to tears. I hate to see him cry and it only makes me feel worse for going out and having fun without him. I try and encourage him to do new things but he always has an excuse. In the end its somehow my fault that we don't do anything. For once I would love to see him make plans or take initiate ahead of time. I would love to come home and find that he isn't free because he has plans with the guys and I get an evening to myself. I feel like I need to get out but I feel so guilty for leaving him alone.
InFp32 InFp32
26-30, F
1 Response Jan 23, 2014

Dont, its perfectly normal to each one of you to have your own time. If you both only have time for each other the relationship wont go very far.

We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.

Orson Welles