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Franciscan University

It was supposed to be my safe haven. After my fast paced life, after three years of residential treatment, after the drugs, sex and rock-and-roll. I am a lesbian and I am proud of that. I am different than most people, but at the same time, I am much more simillar to the majority of the population than most would think. Unfortunately, the majority to my mother are the home schooled, naive and religious stiffs. After the catholic boarding school where I was forced to turn my back on everything important to me with the justification of "it is not right, you are not gay and you need to walk in the light", I lived a couple months at home, was kicked out of the house and returned only to be put to work to pay my parents for living under their roof. So when the time for me to go off for college came around, I found myself at the most acclaimed catholic university in the country. It is full of those holier-than-thou catholics. In mass all you see is a war of who can raise their hands higher, who can sing and cry louder. And the glares and stuck up noses when you walk through the communion line with your arms crossed. I will not receive communion because I am aware of the churches standings on homosexuals. I am living honestly and humbly in a faith that was built upon honesty, humility and love for your neighbor. While the ones trying to be the best catholics around are defying everything their faith teaches. And this is how I lost my faith on top of everything.
Nalxx Nalxx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 8, 2011

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Nalxx - I hope you have found that there are actually some people worth getting to know at that University. They are somewhat well hidden, but they're there. Live and let live, ya know? Them judging you isn't cool at all and I don't condone it, but don't judge them either because then you're playing on the same level. Hey and don't lose faith because of some narrow-minded people. It's not worth it. Trust me we can all use a little faith especially through the tough stuff. Anyway, I hope you're keeping your chin up & that you've found a support system.

Nalxx - I hope you have found that there are actually some people worth getting to know at that University. They are somewhat well hidden, but they're there. Live and let live, ya know? Them judging you isn't cool at all and I don't condone it, but don't judge them either because then you're playing on the same level. Hey and don't lose faith because of some narrow-minded people. It's not worth it. Trust me we can all use a little faith especially through the tough stuff. Anyway, I hope you're keeping your chin up & that you've found a support system.

I TOTALlY know where you are coming from!!! I am at franciscan right now I am transferring out I hve only been here half a semester so far and cannot deal with this shot any longer. I spent last semester in residential treatment for my eating disorder and depression and I have finally admitted to myself that I am bi-sexual. I'm elated that I have cone accross this post and to know that someone knows what I'm talking about. I am getting the hell out of here I'm only staying the rest of the semester because of the credits.

Hmmm. While I don't fully agree with gay and lesbian. I also don't judge you or anyone who is. Just because your different( as are all people in their own way) does that mean you are expelled from christs love, not at all. Weather people admit or not, not one of us can mesure up to Gods standards, because of sin, whichever sin or sins it is, we all sin. But because of Jesus's death on the cross for us, in are unworthiness we are called worthy. Please know that God will take you as you are. Forget the people and give God a chance, in all truth I can say He loves you. Sorry didn't mean to sound preachy , God bless :)