Finding Myself.

Every time I wish to do something for myself it just seems to be a problem for everyone else in the world. I help people with homework, financial issues. You name it. But recently I realized I can't take much more of it. I love helping people because it makes me feel good about myself and it makes me feel like no one will notice how fat and ugly I am because I'm just so nice. People still show me affection even when I'm not doing anything for them but how do I know it's not just because they know I'll be quick to do something for them. I have one best friend but I feel like even he uses me sometimes. I don't really depend on people very much but it's getting tiring having people ALWAYS depending on me. I'm a big girl. I'm 5"9 and 220 pounds. That's not that bad for my height but I'm supposed to be at the maximum of 195 pounds. People tell me I'm pretty all the time and not to brag but I do know how to dress. Sometimes people ask me for money because some know how much money my family has. I have a condo in Atlantic Station and a lot of times, friends come over but end up leaving me to go to the movies or something which is very very very close in walking distance. I want to find a boyfriend and all well actually someone who I can truly love and be happy with. But it seems like all I do is get used. I'm hard working and independent too. I just don't know much else to do. Could someone please help me or something. Give me any advice. Any fast and cheap diets. Exercise that burns tummy fat. I'm all ears. Also, help on finding the right guy who doesn't want me for sex or a cuddle buddy. A lot of men thing big girls are easier because they have low self-esteem. But I'm too smart for that!!!!!
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Jan 17, 2013