Community Vibe: Tired

So all those people who cling to the anonymity of this site seem to be in the same boat: tired.  Current wellness: been better.  I second that.

I am tired too.  If you browse at my other musings, I am tired for several reasons, but the primary one is that I find myself in love with someone who will not love me in return.  I am a strong believer in self love.  I do not suffer from low self esteem.  In the grand scheme of things, life has treated me quite well.  I count my blessings and feel very fortunate for my friends and family and for opportunities that have been given to me.

Nonetheless, within the last few months, I have met someone in my life who has brought me down into a downward spiral.  There are times and even days when I forget all those other great things that I should feel fortunate about.

I am tired

... of hoping for his love,

... of showing how much I care and not have anything said or done in return,

... of missing him,

... and of thinking of him when I know too well that this is not a healthy or sustainable way to live my life.

I just want to shout and cry, go to sleep, and wake up not still hoping for him to be part of my life.

I am so exhausted, but I love him.  Is there really no future between us?
savior savior
26-30, F
3 Responses Dec 12, 2006

Just some insight from someone who's been in your position previously...<br />
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Have you ever noticed how you react toward a man that 'comes on too strong' when you don't reciprocate his feelings and no matter how you try to let him down he continues to try harder and in even more inventive ways? He (the pursuer) does this because of basic human psychology. Everyone wants something/someone they seem unable to attain especially if they are in love with that someone. This makes them want 'it' even more thus perpetuating the problem. The more the pursuer tries, the more the pursuant hides ...

Everything you listed at the bottom and more is everything that makes me tired. My heart goes out to you and I hope that we both make it through this and are stronger for it.

I am only tired from lack of sleep..I am sorry for you who are tired for any reason other than that. Love will find you though..Don't ever surrender!!