Tired, Surrounded By People But Still Alone

I have many friends and family very lucky in that sense of the word but I am alone. I can't share my problems with anyone they always have their own or they just don't understand.

Ever since I was little...I mean really little I have been non chalant about life. Don't get me wrong...if you knew me you would think that I have a great take on life...sometimes i enjoy it. But if any given day you asked me what would you want...to die? No I wish I never exsisted. I was 7 when I first realised that I didn't want to be here.

Im not going to go kill myself or anything!Im just crusing through life hoping that it will through me under a bus.

People have it so easy with hopes and dreams just meandering through life through the good and the bad. I do to but I feel like I don't get it or that I get life too much.

I am the crazy wild friend that you have, the one with all the jokes and the boys, the liberal one that will talk about anything and have an opinion about everything.

I am the friend that everyone goes to I am the one that everyone wants to talk to and when you talk I am the one that hears every word.I listen. I am there in the good times but I am always there in the bad. I take everyone's problems on so that I don't have to deal with my own.

Is everyone like this or am I alone?

Pinkandblack Pinkandblack
22-25
3 Responses Feb 26, 2009

as I read your story I wondered if you were in my head? Where do you go from here? will life always be like this for us? why does it feel like i can't get out of my head to try to be like everyone else?

as I read your story I wondered if you were in my head? Where do you go from here? will life always be like this for us? why does it feel like i can't get out of my head to try to be like everyone else?

after reading your story i realise we are exactly the same you feel hat ou listen to everybody elses problems but can't share yours with anyone because you have to be the brave one the comic the strong reliable friend that everyone can turn to but inside it feels empty and lonely and worthless. I'm the same the one that the boys want to be friends with but would rather take my friends out on dates and ask you for advice i remember everyone all i can do is hope theres somebody that will listen to me but sharing emotions with others is the hardest thing in the world t me