I am jealous sometimes even th...

I am jealous sometimes even though I don't want to be.  I am envious when I see a happy couple, when I see a musician who writes great songs, when I read a book that rocks my world.  I want to be that way as well.
ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
41-45, M
2 Responses Jun 1, 2007

Yeah, I hate to feel jealous but I'd be lying if I said I never was. That's cool you are a rapper. I hope you can overcome your troubles to move on and do what you want to do. No need to be jealous if you can be there yourself.

I can relate. I like to rap and if I wasn't plagued by chronic avolition and drug addiction I had the chance to become successful or at least locally known. I used to write raps with some big time rappers from Houston and could have performed with them, but I was always too ****** up. So now, whenever I see a female rapper, rockin the mic and gettin all that attention, I turn into this begrudging hater! I get jealous sometimes of my husband's mother, they are hispanic and latinos tend to be sickeningly close to their families. The first time he took me to meet his family he actually sat on his mommy's lap. I thought I was going to puke!