Two days ago I got my first referral for surgery and if all goes well then this time next year I will get to have surgery to correct my birth defect. Having this referral has made me think about surgery a lot more and it feels real like,this is it ,this is here and this is big "Omg"

I know that surgery is what I want and I have no conflict surrounding having a sex change, but I am scared of the unknown and I am scared in case I die. The way I look at it, I have a year to enjoy before surgery ,I am going to make it a good one because you never know what's going to happen. Personal I believe what I am doing is right for me, my family beg to differ and I believe they are waiting for me to say "it's all a mistake I will come home" but it's not a mistake and I am happy. If for any reason I wake up one day after surgery and say any different then well I don't see it as a issue. I don't think I will ever regret it.

Either way here is too the next chapter of my life and to the next year of my life. I hope to live to see my 1st birthday as a complete woman.
sarahbethuk sarahbethuk
26-30, F
3 Responses Dec 16, 2012

Thank you all

I'm happy for you 8)

Best of luck Sis.