Tomorrow, A Big Change Is Coming

This time tomorrow night, I will have been castrated. I go in at 7am and hope to be home by noon, as it's an out patient procedure. I keep using the word castrated, because it's a harsher word, and not something to be taken lightly.

I lived as a woman when I was younger and it's a regret that I did not complete the job back then, but now I'm ready. I'm doing the fast, which is good, as I'm already on a diet. My wife is nervous, but we're both excited about it happening. What a difference it will make with my hrt process. I've taken the rest of the week off, as I'm told I'll want to spend some time with ice on the area in question.

The doctor told me I'd be awake and alert up until they start, so I can back out if I so choose right up to the time. I won't be anesthetized, and they'll use a local. The doctor said it would be like doing a vasectomy, but of course more drastic. They'll give me something to relax and of course the local.

I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep tonight, so I might hang out here for a while. I can't eat, but I can type and surf. There's a video on youtube of it being done and I've watched it once, maybe I'll watch it again.

Don't get me wrong...I'm ready for this, and can't wait for it to be over. I'll let you all know how it went, and how it feels (without getting to graphic about it, no one needs that, right?)

Kisses and hugs to my friends.

Mary Beth
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1 Response Feb 12, 2013

You are absolutely amazing and have such a heart! You really convey the emotions you are feeling- the realization of how momentous this unalterable step is and how excited you are to proceed. Yes, castration is a harsh word. It makes a guy feel extremely queasy. But for you, who realizes that you are a woman, and have been all along, it's the next step in a natural progression. Thanks for sharing something like this in the way you did. We look forward to the post- surgery report.