Being A Fool For Love

I am so tired of my boyfriends lies and all the things that I go through just to make him want me and love me. I put up with his attitude and how he acts around other's he makes me feel so small and he treats me like I am stupid. When we are by orselves he acts like a different person but when he is around other people he totally changes ho he treats me. It is getting crazy because I love him so much, but I don't think he loves me how I love him. Things have gottten worse because he lives 4 hours away he tells me one things and does another. I am tired of trying I have been dealing with alot of things in my life and it seems like it's not getting any better for me. It's like I am settleing for anyting because I just want to be love. Sometimes I feel like he should get hit by a bus or something and maybe I would feel better. I even thought about taking my own life because it seems like everyone I have had a long term relationship with turns out not to be right for me, but it takes me a long time to figure that out. I feel like I am stupid when it comes to love no I am just plain tired of all the bullshit. I just want someone to love me for me and not for what I can give. hat ever happen to a relationship being 50/50 it's like it don't exist anymore enough is enough an I have had it. Being a fool for love is my weakness and I feel that men pray on that because they tell me what I want to hear. I just want my boyfriend to understand that when he treats me like that he will reap what he sow.

confused2010 confused2010
26-30, F
Feb 24, 2010