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I have been seeing this girl for 3 years, for about the first year in a half i was dating other girls i was flirting with other girls in front of her n i would bring girls back when we would go out to parties together and she wasnt ok with it but she felt like she couldnt do anything so i guess she settled for being a booty call,because i told her from the beginning that i wasnt gonna be with her and that she should find someone else.i felt like she wasnt good enough for me because she is 4 years younger then me and i still couldnt get over my ex i also thought that she was a bit of a **** because she slept with a friend a day after she did with me in the first week we had met granted they were hooking up before but according to her she had already set her sights on me and would stop at nothing to get me so why go through with that.after about a year a half i stopped seeing other girls for her but i was still a huge asswhole i would ignore her for days until i needed something and call her names and i would make her feel so bad to the point where id walk out with her crying in bed.after a year of not seeing anyone else i got a new job i met a few girls i slept with one and sort of started dating another through this whole time she also got a new job so and i could use that as an excuse to see the other girl when she wanted to hang i i would say i was working or tired and we finally did she would be suspicious but i just increased the asswhole volume i would completely hide my phone she really hated that.she would still tell me that im the onlyone she finds attractive and that she planned her whole life with me in it and that it is impossible for her to cheat because im perfect for her and she doesnt believe in going out because people are only at bars or parties for one thing,and that she didnt even talk to people at work because all she did was work and come home.so this o fcourse had me feeling like i can completely trust her i had told her that i needed my space to think things over and come back to it and really give it a try.well in this break where i was sort of dating the other girl. she hung out with four guys from work multiple times and she was the only girl she would drink with them and who knows what else.well in new years she told me if we can hang out i said no cause i was i with the other girl.so she went to this party with same four guys she got drunk said she felt like dindnt want her anyways and it wouldnt matter so slept with one of them she saids shes sorry and still wants to be with me and it wont happen again and i think i can believe her but idk im now done seeing the other girl cause i wanna maybe im not too sure give a real chance im in no position to demand anything but i want her to quit her job so we can start fresh she wont do that but has offered to tattoo my name but i have no idea of how to feel or what to do im completely... confusedNindecisive

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22-25, M
Jan 13, 2013