The Importance of Trying~

When you give up trying to do anything, you'll never know if you can actually accomplish whatever it is. Weather it be trying to put your life back together, or something more simple. I been giving up on a lot lately.Even the little things I just push off to the side if I get frustrated. Something goes bad and I just give up. I have had done that my whole life. Its one of my major flaws I'm trying to correct. Maybe it isn't just my life. Maybe I give up on some of the people in my life. I pull back when I'm hurting. I pull back from everyone. Not many can reach me when I get that far gone. When I do that I hurt those around me that do love and care about me. And in turn sometimes I lose those people. I pretty much have with my best friend I've had since I was twelve. I have pushed her pretty much completely out of my life. Maybe because she is one that can see through me. I've never been able to hide my hurt and pain from her. I'm trying to work things out with her. But I know it will take some work. I am trying not to isolate myself as much. I'm trying really hard to keep those people that do love and care about me in my life. I've got a lot of messes to clean up. Not the type of messes you can clean up with a broom. I know that if I give up trying I may lose myself completely. And all those that love and care about me will lose me too. I've already hurt many with my actions in the past six months. Most important my kids almost lost their mom. I try to keep them in mind when I feel myself slipping and wanting to withdraw from everyone and everything. Those two need me here even if their not with me full time. I try to imagine life without my mom or dad and I just can't do it. I don't want to give my kids that type of pain to live with their entire life. Those to angels are why I'm trying so hard now. They're who I focus on when things start tumbling down...

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3 Responses Aug 28, 2014

I don't have to imagine life without my parents ... and it's not a feeling I would wish on anyone. I know that place you have visited Princess - I am glad that you found your way back ... I had an angel looking after me back then and 20 years later, I still have the bullet with the indentation the firing pin made in the primer and there is not a day goes by that I am not grateful that it misfired. 🌞

That's awesome keep trying you are loved by a lot of people. Even here you are loved by all of us 💗💗💗

Stunning... Keep positive...happy mind = happy body...happy body..=happy mind....

The pleasure,as always, is mine
i know my crazy life stops us chattering....but im always around whenever you need a shoulder.....

markie xx💝☕

Ty my sweet xxxx