I Never Get Used To Change....My biggest fear was always "change". Things change as you get older, losing grandparents, losing parents.
Kids get older, they have new problems as time goes by. Things I wish I could have control over so everyone could be happy.
Losing my husband, I'm still dealing with that change. I hate change, always have and always will.
I have learned though, that I can't keep things from changing, life keeps going in its own direction.
Its just hard for me to see it happen and I can't do anything to "change" it to be the way I think it should be.
When a therapist asked me what my biggest fear was, I said "change". Its inevitable, things are constantly changing, but
growing up I didn't want it to get to the point where it would effect my whole life.
I'm slowly trying to learn to adjust to the changes in my life and my families. Its hard, its hard to see life go down hill faster than it
goes up hill, either one is hard........I just want things to stay on an even level.
Thats not how it works, and I have to accept that, as hard as it may be, I have no control over what happens and I have to learn to accept
the things I can not change.
honeysuckle23 51-55, F 0 Mar 13, 2012