Is This Getting Better Or Worse??

part 2
lets see if i can make this shorter ..
ok so my ex fiance.. is now getting marry with his ex that he felf for me .according to him , this women has a older son , my ex has a son from his previous marrige ,i was with this guy for almost 5 yrs, we have a 3yr daughte , on 2011 we separated, he said we need time to grow, one yr later his getting marry and have a baby with his ex no his sons mom this other lady..

i was so deeply hurt that i had a break down i was hoping he would come back to us , we had our ups and downs , i would let him see our daughter , normal human mistakes, we always had sex, that gave me hope, he only told me 3 mos ago that he was seeing someone ,,bla bla

well i was etc , now we have become really good friends, but i still love him and we still have sex, i feel horrible afterworse, i have lost my pride, i get angry @ my self for allow it to happen over and over again i have told him to stop, but he says he has feeling for me, and he loves the way i have change , and he hates me for changing now that he had this , what he calls problem,im really confused he acts like he dosent want to be with her but why is he getting marry he says he has to fix his life , he wants to stop drinking i have ,and he loves it and i love it to i only stop because realize that i do have a problem with alcohol i have 2 duis, one 6yrs ago ,
and this one after we got separed i went crazy drinking didnt date but drink alot, now i have alot of regrest, i feel like its all my fault he makes me feel like its all my fault, im a very spoken person and i tell him dont blame it all in me , but deep inside i feel like is my fault.
i decided to stop having sex with him , well his moving with her this wk so it will be hard now right, i pray fro strengh , is not right,
do i keep in touch with my stepson? is that healthy ?? and another thing i hate this lady that i dont know , and i dont want my daughter around her and wish him back but with out the baby, now why did she took him back with a baby.. im so confused and he still cheating on her with me , do i really want this
im really afraid to date, im afraid to get hurt again
here are my mayor questions
1 do i keep in touch with my ex stepson
2 do i let my baby girl be around this women
3will it get better ???
lachicatriste lachicatriste
31-35, F
Dec 2, 2012