Happy "again"?

I can't remember being happy. It sounds horrible saying it, but I'm going on 20+ years of MDD, and I don't remember what "happy" is, or content, calm, relaxed, joyous. I never feel any of these, though I know I must have as a child. Yes, I would love to "become happy again". How, though, how?
Aniratak Aniratak
31-35, F
Dec 10, 2012