Take A Sad Song and Make It Better

Well, I'm not going to lie... A lot of the choices I have made in my life have not exactly been the best; they've cost me things like my dignity, my pride, my sense of self worth & unfortunately, have altered the very way I see myself when I look into the mirror every morning.

The choices I have made have made me seem ugly to myself...emotionally as well as physically... I have given birth more than once but my children, unfortunately did not make it...none of them...and that's something that really has haunted me since those 3 respective days...so much so that when those dates come around every year, my body literally shuts down with a lethal mixture of anxiety, grief, regret & depression...

I won't go exactly into what I had done because honestly, the person that I am now, hates who I was then..but I will say this:

I was a very troubled person in my younger adolescence & I don't want anyone to make the same mistakes that I had done, so now, I use my mistakes and I give public motivational speeches as a Survivor in order to inspire & reassure young girls that just because they stumbled, doesn't mean that that is the end of life.

I want my life to be an example so that others who were like me at that age, can know that things can & will get better with God and with faith in oneself..

Just today I got called during one of my exams to come down to a church & give another of my speeches. And just doing that today, ultimately made my day; but what had made it better was that, I was asked to actually be one of the speakers for a 3 day seminar beginning on Ash Wednesday & ending on Saturday so now I'm even happier & more excited for this coming week!

God really gives His people strength... <3
LieutenantSnuggles LieutenantSnuggles
18-21, F
Feb 9, 2013