Ttc=heartbreak!! (new To The Site)

My husband and I have been trying to concieve for well over a year and a half now and have had all the neccessary fertility tests which all come back saying we are fine and there is no reason why we are not getting pregnant. This of course is good news but it doesnt help us, every month when "mother nature" comes along to rip out my heart and flush all my hopes and dreams down the loo (litteraly). My husband and I are very strong people and talk about all our issues and many of times wev just sat and cried. I just feel like such a failure as each and every month I have to be the one to break my husbands heart and see his hopes and dreams fade from his face when I tell him "sorry not this month" its such a heart break as we are rather young, 25 & 26 yrs old, we have brought our house we both have great jobs and a family that are so understanding and I know they cant wait to see us with a baby. I know I shouldnt feel this way but when I see other ppl with babies and some woman who are pregnant it can sometimes feel like a slap in the face because we are just so desperate, its like I am living half a life and theres so much love bursting to come out and love this baby we have not been given yet. I see so many woman or shall I say, kids getting pregnant these days who just dont understand just how lucky they are and in most cases dont give a sh*t about the child I want to smack them in the face!! Ive even had 2 go buy a big diary so I can get all my feelings out, and find it easier to write them then to burden anyone else who simply just dont know how it feels. Sometimes its nice to know ur not alone and ther are other people who completely understands just how it feels. All I keep saying is ,...... when is it my turn? ive been more then patient!!!
bootybum bootybum
22-25
1 Response May 8, 2012

I understand completely. I have been at it for 1 year and 3 months with no luck. Have you been tracking ovulation, checking CM, taking Basal temps, setting a sex schedule? For most people its just missing ovulation that is the problem. To make myself feel better I like to think the reason it takes people like us so long to conceive is so we will appreciate it more. Once it does happen for us, our child will become our world and we will strive to be the best parents we can be. I wish you luck dear! I hope your time comes soon!