Perhaps Fulfillment Is A Better Word.Life has never been anything close to happy for your truly. I grew up despising the world around me and hated nothing in it more than myself. At some point I decided that do gain any semblance of contentment I would need to escape the oppressive world that I called home. And so I joined the Army.
Life is better, most days I don't feel the urge to crawl out of my own skin, for now anyways. But I live forever under the fear of being deployed and this frightens me most because I fear being fundamentally changed as a person.
I know where I want to go in life, my real problem is getting there.