Dark Cloud

I feel like I have had a dark cloud hovering over me for months and I cant shake it. Maybe I am looking for hapiness in the wrong places.

Goldielocks Goldielocks
26-30, F
8 Responses Nov 8, 2006

I've Had that Same Cloud Feeling As well... I've been with my boyfriend for a year and a half and for some reason ever since I got with him I've had that cloud follow me... I don't know what it is but I lost ALL my friends or they just text me or message me every now and then its seldom when We talk. I used to have it all. I'm talking about popularity , friends all kinds of events I was getting invited to.. I don't understand why after I got with him A Dark cloud has been overlooking me. Something doesn't want me to be happy?.. Me and him Were very happy always having fun and enjoying each others company. Me not having anymore friends "because of him" is really starting to freak me out. Nevertheless he gave up on his friends. I don't want him to through what I'm going through. I try to distant my self from him because I want him to keep his "happy" "perfect life" but it's tough for me to keep pushing him away because of all these emotions that are being stored inside of me... I don't have friends to talk about these emotions with. My family is seldomly around & my siblings are younger. I feel I have no one by my side BUT my BF. the harsh part about that is I love him so much I don't want to talk to him about these struggles I'm going through. How long is this dark cloud going to be following me for!??? And why do I fell leaving him would b the answer ; like just being sequester from every one and try to move on ALL ALONE... ?.

try and change your Vibration, sometimes I feel the same way but i try and keep positive and keep listening to your wish is your command cd series by kevin trudeau.James

Happiness in life is only created from our relationships with others, as much as you can say how much the food is good or your pet makes you smile, they can never fill the hole in your soul, those are the wrong places to find happiness and will just make you feel "wrong" for not enjoying them, but it's normal.<br />
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Love, and not just significant others, love in the broader and more important sense. And even if you start focusing on that, it will take a while before you fully feel the happiness that it brings. People are investments and returns take a long time to come in, and sometimes it doesn't come in at all and you feel used and worthless. But if you can overcome the difficulties and eventually find the people that are like you, and where you belong, you will find the amazing feeling of belonging and true, pure, love.<br />
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It's not easy and sometimes it can take a long time. But you can endure, it is your choice, not theirs.

Hi,<br />
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Break it down into smaller sets of problems. <br />
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For instance, who do you see but can not reach?<br />
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What feeling is there, has been reliable before, but now is out of reach?<br />
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After you have the answers, an honest assessment of <br />
what is stopping you is needed. <br />
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What is stoopping you?<br />
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R

But what happens when eating something great isn't the same?<br />
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When you see it in front of you, like person you love, or a feeling you trust. It's clear and inviting. But it's as if my hands have fallen off and i can't touch it.<br />
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How do you grab it and make it real?

Yeah, WHERE have you been looking?<br />
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I sometimes find a little happiness in eating something great. <br />
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Other times, I realy enjoy watching my kitten. <br />
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Then there are sunrises and sunsets.<br />
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I get a kick out of being this age and being able to work and play with no illness to slow me down. <br />
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Then there are a good book, a friend's visit, and a great movie.<br />
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At times I get out to swim in my pool, or have a luncheon with my Universal Church of Spiritual Living. <br />
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Then there are visits to my sisters' homes, or my brother's home, or my dad's place.<br />
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Sometimes, I make it all the way down to San Diego to visit my youngest daughter and her great hubby. <br />
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My oldest daughter and her son live with us and they are always a joy. <br />
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There WERE times in life when I literally had only a few cents in my pocket and the income that would be coming in was sparse but, I ALWAYS had faith in my ability to learn, change and find a place to fit in. <br />
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It happened.<br />
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VISUALIZE. MOBILIZE. AND PERSIST.<br />
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R

I am frequently in the same boat and have discoverd that we look outside ourselves far too often for happiness. We depend on opinions of others far too much. Of course, this all looks good when I write it, I wish I could take my own advice. Ah, the joy of being human!

Might I inquire where you have been looking?