Victim.

Someone recently told me to stop acting like one. They said I could "just stop" feeling the way I feel about my life.

They don't know I've been trying to fix myself for the past two years. I don't see myself as a victim because of my life events. I see myself as stronger because I'm trying to fight for something better. I don't like looking in the mirror and hating who I am. I don't like pulling my sleeves down every time I walk outside because of the scars. I don't like having to take pills when I leave my house because I can't handle the anxiety it brings. I WANT to be happy. I want to SMILE and actually MEAN it.

If being happy were really as easy as "just stop" I would have done it a long time ago. Unfortunately it's not that easy. You can't just snap your fingers and expect me to sing songs and skip down the road with you. It takes time, it takes will. And I'm working on it.
TheRelapseDevil TheRelapseDevil
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 30, 2012

At least you're fighting for your happiness, and not just sitting down, waiting for it to come to you. that's a big step in itself. (:

Thanks :)