I Am Not Sad

I am kind of contradicting myself, but however for sake of long stories... I am happy for the most part. I am accepting of my life as is for this moment.

But I want to find something big to live my life for. I don't have many goals or ambitions, and although that makes me sound lazy, there is just nothing I have yet to lay my eyes on and really WANT or NEED.

I want to be one of those people who just do whatsoever to their hearts desire and are pleased with their life, no matter how bad or horrid it may be but it's caused from doing things they wanted to do...

Right now I have little purpose, and I truly mean that.. I want it to change! I know my life is short, everyone's is. And it scares me that I cannot be ME right now.

I am working on it... anyone else in this prediciment? I mean, there is LOTS I want to do, just don't know what to do...

Alot of my problems hold me back from most everything, so I should probably work out fixing out the kinks and all and then focus on being truly happy.

I am just kind of impatient, and I have every right to be, right? I mean... life IS short.

BlazzinBebe88 BlazzinBebe88
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 8, 2008

blimey, did you read my mind!! i could have wrote the exact same words. Thankgod your younger then me and I just hope you make a move quickly, dont do what I have done, I am a very good hardworking person, i care for others as a living, but I wish someone had made me focus on the bigger picture, not just immediate gains ie. money. Make a list of what means the most in your life then do everything in your power to get it, go to college, ask for help anything, just dont plod along like me!! you know they say when i die i dont want any regrets, well unfortunaltey im gonna have loads, i wish you all the luck in the world and really hope you find your purpose really soon.