Feeling Unsatisfied.

Let me start by saying that I love my life. I realize that I am blessed and I don't ever take that for granted. Other than some relationship issues, my husband treats me pretty well although he doesn't always show he loves me. I have two beaaaautttiful kids and I love being with them. But there is a part of me that feels SO unfulfilled. I met my husband when I was a teen.. got married young.. had kids fairly young. Never was with anyone else (other than a few boyfriends before but nothing serious and never had sex with anyone else).

This summer I had an affair with a friend of mine whom I always had a crush on. Horrible idea.. yes I regret it.. I don't need any more **** about it. The problems with my husband, some depression and the fact that I had always been infatuated with this guy all played big parts. We are no longer talking which has been really hard.. but that is for another story.

I think the affair.. while damaging.. sort of, filled a need at the time. It was something interesting.. different. Attention that I had been craving and lacking and also fun because I had only ever REALLY been with one other person.

Now I am left with the void. I don't want another affair.. I want things to work with my husband. But I need more than what my life is giving me. I feel bad saying that because from the outside I really do look like I have it all... (although it would be nice if we had more money!).

Has anyone else ever felt this way? I am at a loss.
Thatwasntme Thatwasntme
Dec 6, 2012