Bad Habits

I grew up in a household where health, well, to say that it wasn't a concern would be an understatement. I grew up eating potato chips, sugary cereals, soda pop...and the words "low fat" where the equivalent of a swear. Vegetables were either canned corn, green beans, or once in a while canned peas. Otherwise, lots of potatoes, hamburgers, and enriched white flour. Fruits were kind of a treat to me. So, fast forward to me being 21 and I'm weighing in at 216 lbs. I'm only 5'3, by the way. I have a larger-ish frame...but not that much.

My friend and I had a gym membership, we were okay about going. Then one day she decided that we should do weight watchers. Worked great. For a good 8 months, I was steadily losing...and stopped. I still struggled and managed another 10 lbs or so over the next 5 months. And then...I started to gain again. That was May 2011. I am, a year later...and I'm back at 186.

I'm trying some new things...starting a new exercise routine. Apparently, cardio doesn't seem to do much for me. I just want my clothes to fit better and my health to be better. I'm starting to get my parents on board and decades of bad habits...but I'm still fighting my own. I feel like I'm slowly slipping into depression. I don't want to go that way. I was so much happier when I felt like things were under control. I want that back. But, I keep running into brick walls it seems. I need some help, motivation, ideas...whatever. This isn't working and I'm afraid it's starting to affect my relationships and my work.
BlueMoonLuck BlueMoonLuck
22-25, F
May 15, 2012