Worst Day Of My Life
Yesterda my wife and I decided it was time to let the kids in on our marriage troubles. Well, to those who have told me that the kids know what is going on, you were dead wrong. Both of my kids were in total shock. My son hit the floor screaming and it went into a 5-10 minute outburst of how families work out problems, and if you love someone you dont divorce them you work it, he said we are adults but we are acting like kids........I was in shock, I didnt know what to say. I do still love my wife, she is the one that fell out of love with me. My daughter just sat there in shock for 5 minutes. THen she started yelling WHY WHY WHY, she then focused her rage on my wife, blaming her new job and her new found friend who she has gone out with lately, then she ran out the door. It was absolutey horrifying to see the look and the pain they were going thru. I broke down and cried, but I cant say that my wife showed much emotion. I was completely devastated. We finally got them calmed down but it was only because they realized no body is going anywhere yet. They know we are WORKING on it. <---truth be known, I was the only one that worked on it, I did what the counselor advised, my wife never has and I dont think she ever will, she has checked out mentally and emotionally. Last night both of my kids were in save the marriage mode. They continuously reminded mom and dad how much they love us. We made sure they know this has nothing to do with them. We will both love them equally, no matter what happens. It will be a day by day thing now. In my mind, I have given my wife till December to decide what she wants. That will be the one year mark since she told me that she doesnt love me. The counselor told me that I must give it one year for the sake of the children and that is what I will do. Unfortunately I dont think it can be saved.