One Day At A Time
At the end of October of 2011, I came back from a business trip and I was angry at my wife, my life and everything else. I told my wife we needed to separate for a while. It was the hardest thing for me to do but I couldn't stay at home. I was wanting to divorce my wife because for far to long i felt her mother came before me and her mother has my wife on a string. My mom said wait three months before filing. In those three months I cane to grip with my anger as the emotion of losing a father as a teenager, mother nearly died on Christmas day due to heart problems and in the 2.5 years of being married losing 6 close relatives and 2 classmates just simply overwhelmed me. My wife did try to help some but not really. The day I lost my grandmother she thought it was more important to go see her mother who had a headache. Fast forward to February, God really transformed my life and see things in a different way. My wife thought I was gone forever and tried to move on by filing for divorce. She was seeing a male friend from 10 years back. Personally for a time I was friendly with two women but stopped when God got control of me. I pleaded with my wife to at least put the divorce on hold. Thank God our hearing dates have been put on hold. My wife did stop her relationship when I told her I loved her and wanted to reconcile. Yet she keeps telling me her heart is not there any more and she just wants space and time to think. I am honoring her request but praying I haven't lost her forever. She still have many momentos and a few pictures of me still up where she Is staying but has not attempted to contact me. I don't want to disrespect her and contact her but I feel not keeping the communication lines open will pull us apart. From a female perspective, should I give her time, attempt contact or walk away? I still deeply love her and deep in my heart I know she loves me but is scared of heartbreak again. I know I won't leave again but is it too late?