It Isnt What I Wanted But..........

I have no kids of my own' however i have watched my mates geeky pain in the arse kids grow into the most beautiful teenage boys. They have a magnetism that makes me embarrassed about the thoughts i have. I alienate myself from my friends because they ask things of me that puts me in a place of temptation that i dont feel strong enough to test. I realise my life would be **** if anything happened but im really in a lonely place.
paxton paxton
41-45, M
Aug 8, 2007