Pic Pretty Much Says It.

I am turning 35 on Tuesday and I am very sad about it. That picture I took today...obviously couldn't bring myself to smile.

I have never been married, have no children, and get deeply depressed about birthdays- especially this one. I've finally started to notice those tell tale signs of aging, and it is terrifying.

In my head I still feel like I'm in my 20's, but on the outside -  youth continues to ebb away. As a woman, it's hard not to feel like society's unwanted at this age. I have it in my head that all men are repulsed at the signs of aging, so it's extremely hard to feel confident.

I hate to be such A whiny baby about this, but I need EP sometimes just to vent my anxiety.

I feel just sick over this. Can anyone offer any insight?

 

sava744 sava744
31-35, F
1 Response Feb 13, 2009

hi this is very late but I will turn 35 next march.<br />
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Since I turned 34 Ive felt 'out of the loop' and I also don't have kids and am unmarried.<br />
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I try to not think about what society says, too much, but its hard I know. I guess we need to accept it, but I am struggling with it as you were.<br />
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Anyway I just wanted to say i understand!