Always Never Alone

I started this group and was not surprised to find that it didn't exist. Sure, there are probably similar groups, but I guess that kind of just illustrates my point.

This drives me insane! I fit in without even trying but don't really have any defined place in life. I'm 23 and I feel like I'm 30. I always have. I just started going to school again and I can't even remember why. Most things that I get into, I shoot above average, but is that it? If there was no standard to compare myself to, I would still just be mediocre. No, I'm not bitching about being better than average. I'm venting about not feeling like there's anything to rise above. I doesn't make sense. What am I searching for? What should I be looking for? I'm not even looking to lead anything yet. I just have to find something. Any help?

NeverKnowsBest NeverKnowsBest
22-25, M
2 Responses Feb 16, 2009

Thanks for your comment. I've undergone some psych evaluations for mental health and I've been diagnosed with severe depersonalization disorder. Guess there was a reason.

You seem to dance to your own tune....are you not happy with being good at the things you do, without much effort? It all starts with you...so take it somewhere. I don't mean to sound cynical here, but you sound to me like things come to you easily and it frustrates you, that it lacks challenge or an "edge". What have you done to "grow" yourself? Do you always stay in the safe lane, sticking to what you know or are familiar with? Try branching out, look at things that interest you that you haven't done yet...what about humanitarian work in another country? How about becoming a Big Brother or Sister? Ever worked with the handicapped? Step out of yourself....<br />
"Is that all there is?" Only if you leave it that way.<br />
Give that positive energy a target or goal...assess your interests, your strengths and weaknesses, determine if there is something you want out of that assessment then become a boss to yourself and make it work!