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Don't Ever Try To Change It If You Didn't Try To Get That Way.

I am 5'7" and around 100 lbs.
This sounds shocking to a lot of people, but I don't think it's that bad.
I think I have a narrow skeleton, so my ribs don't show individually anymore.
The most I've ever weighed was 104lbs two years ago, and that was only because I stuffed my face after getting a lot of ridicule from a lot of people. Friends, family, and complete strangers. 
I eat regularly. I eat three meals a day. I eat full sized meals. I even overindulge in junk food on occasion. There is nothing wrong with my eating habits. I don't overexercise. I don't exercise at all. I don't take any substances. I don't smoke. My current size is just how I am.

The only times I worry about my weight is when I get sick. I have a problem with vomiting a lot when ill and sometimes I get down into the 80-90lbs range. I look at my stomach and it looks like i have no internal organs. It is very frightening. 

But for the most part, I'm just fine. People had me convinced that I was sick and unhealthy. I was convinced that I had to gain at least 20lbs and quick or something terrible was going to happen to me.
I started shoveling food down as often as I could. I started off eating healthy, but that wasn't doing anything, so i turned to junk food. After about three weeks of this, I gained only four pounds. And i felt HORRIBLE. I was really tired, I wanted to vomit all the time, and my tummy was constantly aching. The simple thought of food was beginning to disgust me. Looking at it made me feel sick and annoyed. 

I was beginning to actually feel the way everyone thought I already felt all the time, and that scared me. I didn't want to develop an eating disorder as a result of my trying to prove I don't have one, even thought I was pretty much convinced by other people that i did.
It was a confusing time.

So I stopped trying to please people and I stopped wishing they would think better of my appearance. 
We got rid of all the scales in the house. I have no idea of my exact weight, and it doesn't matter to me. I'm only guessing around 100 lbs based on past comparisons. I could weigh 95 lbs or I could weigh 115 lbs.
I don't care. 
As long as I feel good.
itsjustme1001 itsjustme1001 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 26, 2010

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Oh my God people are just jealous! People will tell overweight people they don't need to diet! It's a cultural norm to discourage weight loss, I suppose because weight gain is the cultural norm here in the USA. Anyway trust me 9 out of 10 women would kill to be your size, I don't care what they say. I'm only 10 pounds under "normal" weight and I wish I could lose 10-20 pounds. I wish I didn't have to worry about my weight. You are lucky and beautiful the way you are. Screw people! If someone criticizes your weight, put them in their place about it. It's NONE of their business :)

Thank you :) I'm only 14 years old and only 81 lbs, I actually have and am going through exactly what you described. The turning to junk food, then feeling terrible all the time, then being disgusted by food and getting confused and scared and afraid of an eating disorder even though I'm sure I don't have one, but have been told by others that I do. Reading this gives me a lot of hope. I realized that if I'm naturally this tiny, and I can't gain weight no matter how hard or how long I try (almost a year now and basically no success) maybe I should just stop thinking so hard and let everything work naturally... :)