Never A Paying Job.I am unemployed. I've never had a paying job due to my agoraphobia & social anxiety. I am afraid to even leave the house, let alone do much else, so having a job is out of the question. But I have been seeing a vocational specialist for 2 1/2 years. She helps the mentally ill find jobs. Because of my lack of experience, I've never gotten one. I know I won't be able to handle one even when I do get one, though. But even though I've never had a paying job, I have been caring for my mom since she had a very bad stroke in '01, when I was 19. It's not as if I just sit around doing nothing all day, but that's the way others see it. Especially because they have no idea how hard my life is. If only they knew what it is to live in a life full of fear, I know they would stop thinking of me as they do.
lyricalongings 31-35, F 8 Responses 1 May 18, 2010