15 Years of Marriage. Unhappy. Met An Old Friend. Now What?
I am 36 years old and I have been married for 15 years to my wife. But I got married for the wrong reasons. 1) I was expected to marry this person. I did not want to disappoint anyone 2) I wanted to experience sex.
My wife loves me alot, she has always wanted romance and passion in our marriage. The problem is that I have no desire to. I do not love her as much as she loves me. The reason I stayed with her is because as a Christian I am suppose to. So for the past 15 years I continued to put un a "happy smile" in front of her, my family, and my friends.
But I am miserable. I would from time to time cry myself to sleep. I did this for 15 years!!!
I recently ran into a friend of mine from 20 years ago. She has been married for 1 year now. We both realized just how much we care for each other. But of course we cannot pursue a relationship. She told me she cares for me so much that she does not want to burn my 15 year marriage.
The fact is I feel deeply for this person. I had always felt for her. I find myself now willing to give up my 15 years of marriage for her. But she does not know this yet.
I am at a complete lost. I am carrying the heavy burden of my unhappiness from marriage while at the same time completely love sick over my friend. I feel like I am drowning!!! Help!!!