Empty Lonely and Miserable
hello...im glad to have found tis site because i like evryone here is unhappily married. i guess my story begins 13 years ago which is when i met my husband i was only 15 and he was 17. i loved him soooo much back then .... but i realize now what i didnt then is that he was slowly breaking me down, but i was at that point too blind to see it. well we eventually married and had a child right away...and since then i have been more miserable than i ever thought i would be. there has been alittle physical abuse, alot of mental and verbal abuse as well. he has played alot mind games too for instance he told me he wanted a divorce because he wanted to be with another woman so i had said ok and started to save to move out well within a couple of weeks he decided he didnt want to be with her anymore..and so therefore everyting was null and void so i was now suppose to give him another chance....really i wasnt given a choice in it ..... unfortunatley now im so sick of the sight of him. i cant even stand talking to him it makes me sick . and every night we fight about everything and nothing im soooooo tired of fighting. i have tried to work things out make things better i have tried to make him see that sometimes the things he does are very hurtful , things do get better for awhile but always slowly return to normal. now im not saying im perfect because i know im not i have done some hurtful things as well ... i did try to end things but that hasnt worked and nothing i say or do can get me out of this mess...so i guess i have to accept that this is my life and make the best of it...tho that does make me very sad. i long for the time when i can honestly say i am happy. i cant wait to meet like minded people and hopefully gain som hope.