Let Me Go Please...

I wanna break up...
But every time I try too it seems to be about the same time when you say how much you love me.
We know we won't work out in the long run.
We tried breaking up before.
It was okay, we were doing okay. Just okay.
I don't want to be okay. 
I want real love. 
I don't even love myself.
How can I love someone else?
People change, we're so young! 
Then we got back together. And now my feelings are becoming resentful.
Please, let me go.
We fight a lot. laugh less....
I'm there physically...but mentally I wanna run.
It feels like a choir.
I didn't sign up for this.
I'm so sorry.
I can't tell you how sorry I am. 

I can't say it any better than this song..
The Gorillaz- The Binge

whatnottodo whatnottodo
18-21, F
2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

Wow I can't take it everything I do is wrong in my relationship. I have been a good man and father I think my girl doesn't think so I'm tired of her being mad at me everyday is this ok that I'm treated like this?

No, it's not ok. I actually broke up with this guy like a day after i wrote this. I took some time to myself and realized how much i did want to be with him. I'm lucky that he took me back because if he treated me the way i treated him, (always angry, always arguing, always blaming) then i would not have taken him back. What changed? I missed him. My life without him was...sad..maybe i didn't give it enough time who knows but he honestly is my best friend...and it's hard to let go and i don't know if we'll last forever. It's helped that i've stopped asking that question. I don't know how things will end up between up. I do, however, grow and enjoy as much as i can from what we have. Every situation is different. I don't know the dynamics of your relationship but always remember that you come first. Love yourself and love will follow. We're both on the same page now. We do our own things and give each other space. It makes things more fun and exciting when we get to share it with each other. I'm sorry, i'm ranting :P but if you need someone you can talk to me :)

Wow! I. Am. Right. There. With. You.

If you ever want to talk or share, hit me up.

I know i'm never alone when it come to anything but it's always nice to hear it. :)
I was in a really bad place in my life and relationship when i wrote this but things are looking way up. I actually broke up with this guy and for a little bit things were great. Then i realized how much i really loved him. I'm lucky to have him really. We're working on things. I don't know if we'll last forever but i'm happy to be out of that hole i was in a few months ago. If you need someone or advice i'm here.