Am I Making A Mistake?

I've been married for almost 7 years now. I met my husband when I was 19, and it was love at first sight. Soon after, I became pregnant with our first son. I can remember asking myself if this is the man I was prepared to spend the rest of my days with. If this is the man I wanted to father my children. He was, and still is, a caring and sensitive person. A very genuine and noble person with great work ethic and family values. The kind of guy you never let go because you may never find another like him. And to this day he's held that great character. A great father and role model, a loving and caring husband. But what if ....?
Lately I've been feeling as though perhaps we just aren't compatible. The flame has long burned out. I still adore him, but I am not in love with him. Our goals in life don't seem to match up quite as they used to. I have an energy within me that I can't calm. I feel like I've not yet found out my true self and that part of the reason is this marriage. All of my passions I no longer explore. I feel old and dead. It's almost as if I would rather be alone (not married). But what of my children? My husband? How could I even think of destroying something that works, on the chance that it could be better for me? Am I so cold? But how can I go on for another 50 years wondering?
DevlynDisguise DevlynDisguise
26-30, F
Jan 18, 2013