Marriage Is Nothing More Than Legalized Slavery.Needless to say, Im pretty unhappy. I have been married for only 5 year and they have been a wretched. I have three children ages 10, 4, and 2. My husband is exceptionally controlling, very demanding, and has an explosive temper. He opens and reads of my personal mail. He goes through my emails, txt messages on my phone, listens in on my phone calls to family and friends, and will do anything to prevent me from having any kind of privacy or personal boundaries. I am not allowed to have or spend money but he drops money without thinking at his golf club or the casino. (This DRIVES ME NUTS!!!!) I am also not allowed to have "free" time. I am expected to drop everything and do as I am told when I am told. That doesnt work for me!
I cannot talk to him without him insulting or yelling at me. He finds fault in literally everything I do. I have given up trying to reason with him. I just do what I am going to do; he yells and screams but he yells and screams no matter what I do. So I might as well get something out of it.
I keep a very clean home. I have breakfast, lunch and dinner ready for everyone almost every day (with the exceptions of when I am hospitalized.) I cook, clean, and manage the children even when I am very sick. I am not really given a choice in the matter. If I dont do it; no one will. My children will not be neglected simply because their father is an ***. When I am hospitalized, a grandma comes and takes the kids. So he is never responsible for his offspring.
Before I stayed at home with the children, I was an IT Director.
I hate what my environment has become. I just cannot believe what its turned into; I really dont know how it got to this point. I want out but I cannot afford to leave and I certainly cant afford to go without his health insurance. (Yes, I know, Im staying for the wrong reason; Im a terrible person, yada, yada, ya....) I have very serious health issues. Going without health insurance would be catastrophic.