I am a 41 year old mother of 3 kids. The oldest is in college now and is from my first marriage. The younger 2 are less than 11 years old and are from my present marriage. We have been together for 12 years. I have been unhappy with him for about 8 years, and it gets worse every day. He has never really done anything horrible to me, though he lies often and I feel like I really don't know him at all. He has been a good father to our children and a good step father, as well. I am not sure why I feel like I do, but I just do not love him like I did years ago. I can't stand the thought of him touching me, either. I guess I can contribute some of my feelings to the fact that he acts childish. He is extrememly irresponsible and takes nothing seriously most of the time. I am just tired of being the strong person in the relationship. I long for a man that would take care of me instead of me taking care of him. I feel just terrible for the feelings I have, but can not change them. I have tried and tried to feel different, but it just isn't possible. I am seriously considering divorce because this is not fair to him or me, but then there are children involved, so that makes the decision a difficult one. I just feel so lost and confused right now. I wish there was an easy solution to it all, but seems there isn't.