Sliding Doors

Ever watch the movie sliding doors? Two parallel universes are portrayed in this movie starring Gwyneth Paltrow on the paths her life could’ve taken had she missed or boarded the train she was trying to catch.  In one universe she catches the train in time to get home and catch her boyfriend in bed with his ex girlfriend.  She also meets another man who would be the one after she dumps the cheater.  In the second universe she misses the train and doesn’t get home in time to catch her boyfriend cheating.  There are many other details to the movie based upon the path she chose.  I now think on this movie as I reflect on the path/paths I have chosen.  I often wonder what my life would be like had I not married the cheater I am with right now, or if I had ended it the first time I discovered anything.  I realize that each little path and decision that I have taken has given little twists, turns, bump that have given me happiness, sadness, joy, depression, self discovery, pain, self actualization, and immense hurt.  I have endured many hurts in my life from the time I was 17 on until now.  And the truth of the matter is, it might not have mattered which path I took when I was younger and unknowing but now that I am older, hopefully wiser, and have children of my own, means that I do need to pay closer attention to the path I decided to go.  Hopefully those paths well help correct the wrong paths that I have traveled down thus far.  I did realize one thing though, as hard as these major mistaken paths have been for me,  each time I go through and continue to live I am reminded that I grow…stronger.  With this continued strength I hope to one day truly find my path and someone who will understand, love,  and accept me for me.

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31-35, F
Jan 8, 2013