Married But In Love With Someone Else.
So here I am, 19 years old and married. I shouldn't have gotten married this young, but I was blindly in love (so I thought). I love my husband, I do. But I feel like there is something missing. That romantic spark, that real connection. But I'm not sure if I don't feel it because I'm in love with someone else. I knew my husband for 2 months before we married, so it's safe to say I didn't really know him and I was only 18. I've known the other guy for 6 years and I've likes him since we were kids, we just never really took it any further than having crushes on each other. Now I'm madly in love with him. I've tried to stop talking to him but I just can't. He's all I can think about and I want to be with him so badly. I had an affair with him and when we're together i just cant get enough of Him. We have a connection that i just dont feel with my husband but i dont know if km being blindsided because my feelings are so strong. I know the grass always seems greener. My husband is a great man though. But another thing is I feel like I don't know myself well enough. I got married at 18, I haven't had any time to be an adult and figure out my own life. I feel like I don't know who I am as an individual. My husband has been having the same feelings. I don't want to leave my marriage for someone else but because of what's best for me. I was thinking to possible do a trial seperation and move back to my home state for a while and try to figure things out. I just don't know what to do.