Nervous Breakdown

In every way that you can possibly think of I am unstable: emotionally, physically, mentally, etc. I just can't understand why, but I seem to content with being unstable because I make no effort in changing the fact that I am horribly unstable and most likely on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Yet, here I am continuing on the same path that I have always have, but that is my choice and well I really don't care enough to try to change my ways right now.

I have screwed up every relationship that I have ever had, and well I hate myself for that. I think that maybe I do it, because I am insecure about the way I am.. maybe I just don't feel worthy of it. I don't know why but I just know I do it every single time.. Just another thing to add to my list of downfalls.. 

Life goes on I guess.

 
imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
18-21, F
Dec 2, 2012