I can't seem to make up my mind on what I want to do in life. Everyone keeps pressuring me to go to college and "better my life" but I'm not sure if college is right for me. I know I could make so much more if I decided to go but I don't like the fact that it will put me in debt. I also still don't know what career I want to pursue yet. I thought about nursing for a while and thought about the prenatal care or delivery because I love babies and think they are the most precious gift god could ever give someone. That just interests me and I would love to help bring a new life into this world but I just don't know if I can deal with all the years of school and all the money I would have to put forth to do it. I wish there was an easier way to go about doing a job I love. I know I shouldn't take the easy way out because if I keep doing that it really won't get me anywhere in life.I also don't know if I want to settle down. I have a boyfriend who is amazing and I couldn't ask for anything better than him and we have talked about our future and having kids but it scares me to think of getting close to someone because what if they just end up hurting me in the end? I have been hurt to many times and trusted people only to be let down in the end. I don't think he is like that but there is always a "what if?" in the back of my head. I have alot of trust issues and don't know if I will be able to open up enough to let someone in for the rest of my life.
Amner Amner
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 23, 2010

Hi Amner :) You are still very young and it is good that you have reservations about rushing into anything too soon. As far as your boyfriend is concerned, just take the time to get to know him and learn to be friends with him. Slowly your trust in him will build and his true character will be revealed over time. You just have to give that a chance. Careers - go and talk to a counselor at a local college and ask if they have aptitude tests that can give you an idea of narrowing down a career choice. There is a book i read years ago called What Color Is Your Parachute? It is about finding out what you like most in life and what careers are available to pursue among your strongest personality traits. Also think about what hobbies you like and if they could be turned into a career. For instance if you like photography - there are many careers to use that skill in. Wedding photographer ; journalism, etc., you get the idea. So take the time to explore and find something you will really be happy doing and it will feel more like inspiration every day than work! I wish you the best in starting your new, independent life.. remember that health, happiness, love, peace of mind should always be the basic things your life is made of. It reminds me of another book Do What You Love - The Money Will Follow :) Try amazon.com and you can find these books for a good price, used. Have fun love and keep us updated on your latest news :) xox