What's The Point?

The simple irony of wondering why I'm posting this on here is killing me right now, because after all... what's the point?

I feel trapped in a place that I put myself in. A place of severe hopelessness and desperation although I know that none of it is real. In a day or two it will all pass and I'll be fine again, but will I really? Or will I have just pushed it aside for another time?

Today I feel like I want to die. But even that thought causes me pain because dead I am more of a burden than I am alive. I feel more worthless today than I have felt in a long time.

I am an incredibly intelligent person and yet I have been unable to find a way to utilize it for anything other than my own incredibly painful self-analysis. Being an insightful person only allows me to see what an absolute waste my life has been to this point. How much longer can this go on?

After all, what's the point?
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1 Response Sep 7, 2012

I just saw this. I hope things got better. I wish I had some words of comfort, but actually I am feeling exactly the same way. It is as if I could have written this. Hope things are going better with you and wish you all the best.