It's My 19th Birthday! Yay......?

Well, I don't feel a single damn thing even if it's my birthday today.
Honestly, it wasn't even on my mind until my friend brought it up a couple days back.
Since a few years ago, I used to be rather...mellow, well, close to sad whenever it was my birthday.
I don't know why, neither.
I used to be happy and excited for my birthday when I was younger, until somehow I just..became downright sad whenever it's anyone else's birthday. Maybe it's because my friends threw parties and I didn't, maybe it's because I just don't think I'm special enough to get in the way of others just for my birthday party. I'm not that special, nobody is.

And well, this year things are just.. I just don't feel anything anymore.
It's just another rainy Saturday,
doesn't matter if it's my birthday.
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18-21, M
Dec 7, 2012