My Worst Memory .. And It Haunts Me

I'ts bed time ..Dad is drunk again  and I'm maybe 7 or 8 years old ...i have 3 siblings and we are all upstairs in bed .we have school tomarrow . my parents are downstairs .. screaming I am awake because of the noise .. i hear things being knocked over .. thrown around  i hear my mom's cries .."please stop.please stop ! !..that hurts that hurst!"..my little sister and I are crying .. and my older sister says "you should be used to this by now".. she was 10 or 11......either my brother was asleep or just seemed to be .. we heard nothing from him .. So i ran down stairs to try and stop what was happening .. I arrived to find that my father had my mom's arm twisted behind her in a hold .. that's what was hurting .. he saw me .. stopped what he was doing and came to me to slap me in the face and say to mind my own business before shoving me and telling me to go back to bed .... I couldn't stop it .. so i went back to bed... and the fighting continued .. .. the next morning .. i walked down stairs .. to find my mother on the couch .. crying .. i couldn't recognise her face .. luckily i know her voice .. which kept repeating "im a monster I'm a monster!".. my father was in jail.. and she had allready been to the  hospital .. to get stitches in her chin.. they were surprised she had survived the night, having slept in that condition.. ... I wish i could hate my father .. but i don't .. I can't hate.. ........

audul audul
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 13, 2010

just because i spoke of my worst memory doesn't mean that i don't know everyone has bad memories..i wasn't being apathetic. i was being creative .. you ****.. .. everyone is different .. everyone handles things differently .. what may not effect you may effect someone else greatly and YOU should learn how to accept that.... like the fact that you've been insensitive with a sensitive subject.. thanks a lot and I HAVE learned from my parents's mistakes.. how often do you think I drink ?..huh .. not freakin often .. do you think I go around beating people ?.. naw . that's not my style.. .I'd rather do art.... so next time you give advice .. try not to state the obvious .. please .. besides .. my father isn't violent anymore....it was just a memory ...