Very, Very Insecure.I don't know why anyone would like me, or would want my friendship, or anything more. The fact is I'm a hidden mess. I'm mostly scared of loss, of rejection, of failure.I think I'd be ecstatic to date someone who was hopelessly socially inept, just because I wouldn't have to worry quite so much about what she would think. I'm very insecure. In some things I push myself way too hard to be the absolute best, like art, or I feel like a complete failure. In most things, I opt out because I'm too scared of failing. I don't really talk to people anymore. I mostly type. I have time to think this way, and if I mess up I can just hit the 'remove from circle' button and hide from the failure.
Inside, I think I'm passionate. I hope I am. But I can't let that come out; if what I show is fake, neutral, and cold, I don't have to worry about what people think.