This Stinks. Did I Make The Right Decision?
I met a guy in college and we could never date for more than 2 or three months because he would always break up with me (we tried twice). 2 years later, I still love this same guy very much and he was like my only friend that I had (not good at making friends). He's not a bad guy, but his only tendency is to stop talking to me every 2 to 3 month interval because he's experiencing depression (he tells me). Even this not talking thing he'd do could go on for days weeks or months at a time. I wanted to understand him, I wanted to be there for him, but I felt like that I didn't exist with him...even though i told him how much i cared and how concerned I was. When he text back, he always sounded like he was in a hurry....Maybe I'm selfish, but this hurt! It was just hard to agree with the fact that we were always inconsistent. My grades began to drop and lost sleep. I over ate just so I could ignore the fact that this really hurt. So one day after not seeing him for three weeks, he just passes me by on campus. Something snapped inside of me and I suddenly just felt tired. I told him we couldn't be friends anymore. I wasn't mean, I blamed it on myself...because when you feel guilty that's the easiest things to do. I loved this guy so much, and I only wanted him to feel the same way. Now that we're not friends, I'm lonelier than ever and I feel like I'll never feel that closeness with anyone again. I have no one to talk to.