I Am Very Lonely In My Marriage
I have been married for 14 years and every time I try to talk about my feelings concerning our relationship it only ever makes things worse.
Anything I say is twisted and into being me attacking her or is met with “well why don't you leave then” I can never get anything in response that could ever be called “constructive” I can barely ever get a conversation out of her that isn't longer than a couple of sentences and and contains multi-syllabic words. I was recently accused of humouring her because her nicotine deficiencies when trying to give up smoking and that argument was her excuse to start again and was completely unfounded.
My biggest problem is that I must be gutless not to just pack up my things and walk out but I have committed a lot to our relationship over the years and I still think I love her even though she's making it harder and harder.
I work from home and because I'm at home she must think I'm sitting around doing nothing all the time, when she comes home after I pick her up from work (because she doesn't drive) she'll be on her computer checking her emails and facebook while I cook her evening dinner, for which I have done the shopping and preparation. We eat and she'll make me a coffee after that she'll get into her Pjs and sits herself in front on the TV. Not long after which she'll start getting tired and go to bed (around 8.30pm) and then get up at 5am and spend more time by herself in front of her computer.
This is just a rant I wanted to share here in the experience project. Excuse my spelling and grammar.
Anything I say is twisted and into being me attacking her or is met with “well why don't you leave then” I can never get anything in response that could ever be called “constructive” I can barely ever get a conversation out of her that isn't longer than a couple of sentences and and contains multi-syllabic words. I was recently accused of humouring her because her nicotine deficiencies when trying to give up smoking and that argument was her excuse to start again and was completely unfounded.
My biggest problem is that I must be gutless not to just pack up my things and walk out but I have committed a lot to our relationship over the years and I still think I love her even though she's making it harder and harder.
I work from home and because I'm at home she must think I'm sitting around doing nothing all the time, when she comes home after I pick her up from work (because she doesn't drive) she'll be on her computer checking her emails and facebook while I cook her evening dinner, for which I have done the shopping and preparation. We eat and she'll make me a coffee after that she'll get into her Pjs and sits herself in front on the TV. Not long after which she'll start getting tired and go to bed (around 8.30pm) and then get up at 5am and spend more time by herself in front of her computer.
This is just a rant I wanted to share here in the experience project. Excuse my spelling and grammar.
By:
BaronJack67
Age:
41-45
