I Am Very Passionate

I am very passionate for life, but I can neve fell the passion. I learned at a young age how to shut down my emotions. I learned how to shut down my emotions when my parents would fight. I learned how to shut down my emotions when I saw people hurting and I chould not help. I learned how to shut down my emotions when my mom left when I was young. I learned how to shut down my emotions when my dad had to work long hours to suppot us. I learned how to shut down my emotions when we moved from my home town in California to the middle of the woods in Oregon, so my dad whould have family around to help him. I learned how to shut down my emotions when we moved back to my home town and and I knew no one there. I learned how to suht down my emotions when my mom and da got back together. Some may say that these are not big enough resins to become detached from my emotions, but as I said I am a vary passionate person. I only opened up to two people my first love, and my best friend Jason. Even thou my friendship with Laura and Jason was strong we still lost contact with one another. I have made alot of friends in my life. Some understood me and some did not. which is why I have don so many different things. With each experience I have and each friendship I make. I hope to find that door to my soul. The door that will release all my emotion. I know that one day my emotions will flow freely and I will find that perfrct women to settle down with and start a family. until then I will continue to release my emotions through my tears and hold on to my passion for life.
thedreamer thedreamer
26-30, M
3 Responses Oct 20, 2006

you need to feel you emotions. otherwise they will come out when you least expect. I have been there and done that. I bottled up for years, then when you start to feel them, it is like a flood gate is opened. My advice is to start slow and let them come naturally.

awwww