Is It Possible To Be Too Passionate?I feel so much! I feel happiness, sadness, grief, love, etc. very intensely. I do everything with so much enthusiasm and energy. I dream big. And even when I'm dreaming simple it's always so vivid. How can I describe this other than I feel the moment. If I'm walking on the beach I feel the breeze, the smell of the ocean, I hear the waves, I see the sun glistening in the water. I am one with the moment. And it make me feel good. I feel alive.
I put love into everything I do. I am curious. I am adventurous. (However, I know my limits.) I want to live life to the fullest. I want to experience as much as I can. I appreciate art, culture, history, music, food and beauty! I am sensual.
Yet, I feel like an outsider. I feel that I should be less emotional. That I should tone down. My own husband doesn't understand my dreams or my passions. He thinks I am fanciful. So I try to tone it down. I try to suppress my feelings. I feel so alone. How can he not understand me? I suppress, suppress and suppress until I feel like I'm suffocating. I am dying inside because I need to unleash my passion. I need to fly.... To live. To love. To hate. To be angry. Is it wrong?
lagatta 41-45, F 7 Responses 9 Nov 14, 2012