I Am Making Myself Unattractive

I can't seem to get to the root of why I do this to myself. I want to go out more, wear pretty clothes, have guys flirt with me again... I know you're supposed to love yourself from the inside out. For me, it just seems to go in the other direction.
DivaNYC63 DivaNYC63
41-45, F
1 Response Oct 30, 2007

My absolute low point came in August 2008. At 5'7", and weighing 218 lbs, I finally couldn't take it anymore. I started a healthier diet that has lasted to this day. I now eat to live, rather than living to eat. I can't tell you what it means to have men hold doors open for me again. How it feels to have dropped so many lbs, that all the pretty clothes I bought over the years in smaller sizes and tucked away, still don't fit but because...they are too large! I see old friends and they say I look better than ever. I am down to 138 lbs and figure another 10 to go. Thank you for your kind words. They didn't start me on this path, but they helped to keep me going.