Found After Many Years

My husband John was the best. We dated in high school but went our seperate ways. Thirty years later found each other on classmates. We reconnected and got married. We were very happy for 8 years. John got sick with a heart condition and COPD. He progressed quickly in the sickness. He passed away May 3, 2009 at 3:35 AM. I sat by his bed for 4 days without sleeping or eating. On Saturday he woke up but could not speak because of the resperator. I told him I loved him and he shook his head that he loved me too. Then there was his 3rd code blue. The doctors brought him back but said there was no hope. His body could stay alive on the machines and medication for a while but that would fail too. His brother and I decided to let him go. It was so hard to do. I sat by him, held his hand and talked to him until he left this world and me. I miss him so much. I want him back. I want to talk to him, I want to dream about him. We did not have enough time.

cloudsdancer cloudsdancer
56-60, F
3 Responses Mar 4, 2010

iam so sorry for your loss, that seriously jus broke my heart reading that. i cant even imagine what your going through, all i can say is try and stay stronng im sure its veryy hard!

I am so so sorry<br />
I do not want to even try to imagine the pain<br />
don't close up, even if its tempting <br />
u are in my thoughts

I am so sad for you that you lost your soul mate. He was a fortunate man to have you enduring love.